Life?!!

Don't worry. I'm not gonna go and do anything stupid or selfish. But, the road's end is beginning to look better all the time. I'm sick of feeling like a problem. I didn't ask for this damn disease, the meds or the side effects. But, it's looking like my trying to be responsible, honest and not risk a child's life is going to come close to ending our marriage, if not outright end it. If I'd croak it would solve many problems that exist in our life. If it wouldn't put me on the outs w/ God, whom I deeply love & do NOT want to disappoint, I could just stop Interferon and Testim. It wouldn't be any fun. The disease, however, would just do its job and get rid of one mouth to feed. I'm still here, though. So, God must still have work for me. That's ok. HE knows best.:-)
Yes. I still smile, enjoy warm, sunny days and time w/ my bud, "Curry".