Insurance and MRI

My MRI results apparently show some thickening of tissue in my "Cavernous Sinuses", under and behind the brain I think. I'll find out exactly what that means Nov. 17, my next Oncologist's appt..
Since my Drug coverage is being cancelled, per CIGNA, we had to talk to my agent about new ins.. Well, wonderfully, I've found that, to be covered, we not only have to pay the standard charge for Medicare coverage, which does basically nothing, we now have to pay $154 for supplemental health and another $34 for drug coverage. Both monthly.
With our outgo and this new extra cost, I just don't get how we're supposed to get by. I'm looking for some work I can do on my meds. But, that's difficult w/ the side effects considered, and I cost a good deal of bucks and worry for my bride.
I'm beginning to have thoughts that she'd, in time, be better off w/out me. She could find someone w/out this stupid disease, who worked, added an income to the home and didn't cost a fortune in meds and dr.'s appt.'s to "maintain".
No. I'm not going to do anything stupid. My poor gal has been thru hell due to my presence in her life. Just seems like my absence would become a relief. Then again, there's nothing like loving her or being loved. Think I'll stick around. :-)

Me and My Big Mouth

Well, thanks to my big mouth ( I called my doc just in case Tues. was a warning sign), I'm back for an MRI Tues.. Man, I'm getting tired of being the money siphon in our household. Sometimes I honestly wonder if my wife wouldn't be better off if I took the ascending elevator home. But, that's silly. I'd want to take care of her if she were sick, and I wouldn't love her any less. I'd be lost if she was taken from me, too.

Blue "Tuesday"?

I had a very strange day yesterday, Tuesday. I awoke w/ the feeling that someone had their finger in my head stirring my brains rather vigorously. I'd had an injection that morning. But, Interferon rarely bothers me any more, thank goodness. I had changed my Fentanyl patch around 12:30 am on Monday. That's more than enough time to adjust to that, though. I spent the day off balance, w/ shaky vision, tired, forgetful and w/ that stirring feeling in my head.
Adding to that, at about 8:45 pm, I glanced at the clock and realized our Small Group would be letting out in 15 minutes. I forgot group!! Dang it! Probably best, though. Feeling like I did and having shaky vision at best, it probably wouldn't have been very responsible to get behind the wheel and maneuver those winding, dark, country, mountain roads. It'd be a nasty surprise for my wife if I came home dead or in cuffs (I'm sure Fentanyl in my blood would constitute DWI). Thankfully, today is a different day, and I'm feeling a bit better :-).